First day of... a new life that I didn't expect

First there is a whisper, it feels like a tug of curiosity. The energy flows through your chest and down your arms and you feel a little off center when you ask about what it's like to own a business. That trusted person that you ask smiles, and tells you the good and the bad, and you walk away from the exchange feeling a little lighter and full of more curiosity. Then weeks later it starts to seem like there are mentions, ads, and memes around you about women entrepreneurs. Your Facebook algorithm starts to change and soon becomes filled with motivational quotes about hustle, overcoming obstacles, and feeling free. That is the whisper before the change.

Today is June 1st, and for the past 90 days I have been arguing with myself daily about this change. Spending thirty years doing the responsible thing meant that there was a lot of old systems in my head that insisted that I had arrived at the station in my life where I should be proud of what I had done. The beautiful home, the exciting vacations, the excellent health insurance, even extra money for those little "touch ups" that are done in a medical aesthetic spa. You know the ones I'm talking about. It's easy to buy that for a while, but within me was a much louder and more insistent voice. It was annoying, really.

After having read every recommended book on menopause, on letting people do their own thing, on reclaiming my power and every other "go get them you have nothing to lose" topic.. I was tired. I was tired and irritated. I sat in meeting after meeting with people who did not listen to my suggestions, I wrote volumes in Wiki's, emails, and other professional documents for technology. I was really pushing myself to deliver my best after thirty years in software and two college degrees. Nothing was working. And by working, I mean I left everyday feeling like I was shouting into a void that was mocking me. It had nothing good to say to me and that void can really kiss my ass, seriously. 😜

So when the choice came, I chose to leave. I mean who has time for endless debates with an endless void that isn't listening?? Seriously, I left. With decades of experience in business, an MBA, and a deep love of all things technical I left anyway. Why? Because I also spent that same amount of time as a Wiccan Priestess studying and using the intuitive tools that kept me sane. I realized at that point that those tools are the next step in managing our strategies for success. Astrology is pattern matching at it's simplest. Just like analyzing batches of data, astrology uses data from different dates and times to map out where the influences in our lives are falling and we decide what to do with that information. The Tarot is an identification method for mapping emotional experiences and relationships. You can call it the MBTI of the mystical world. Just don't ask me what card represents an ENFP. 😀

I welcome you as you join me on this journey away from the floods of information and rage bait into a world where human conditions are the stock and trade of good conversations and we all learn from each other. Join me as I explore mapping astrological translations into corporate culture and use the tarot to identify the characters that we'll meet along the way.

We are the whisper before the change...

-Heather